Philippians 4:6-7

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.

Tears threatened to blind me as I frantically read every street sign, knowing that I had somehow missed the one I was looking for. The directions I had been given seemed straightforward, but nothing is so simple in this part of the country. The words, "Every little road leads to a big road eventually" played in my mind with the thought that even if a big road came along, it would not be helpful to me - I simply do not know the area well enough. Had this not been the second time in two weeks that I had gotten lost, it wouldn't have been nearly so stressful.

Before the tears won out, I cried out to Jesus, "Please, just help me - You know where I am and where I need to go - clear my mind so I can think logically." There was no blinking sign that said the name of my road and no voice from heaven saying, "Go this way." There was but a gentle peace that rested on my shoulders and worked its way into my heart, trying to massage out the frustration and exhaustion. Finally, I saw the name of my road and turned onto it. As I went further and further, I asked again for clarity of mind - and soon realized that I was going the wrong way. So I got turned around and nearly an hour after I left my friend's house, I returned home. It should have only taken 20 minutes.

But as I sit and process this event, I realize that God answered me. No one in the world knew where I was at that moment - I was completely alone. But God had His hand on me the whole time and when I called, He answered. He cleared my mind of the thoughts that hindered my logic and reminded my heart to live in His grace. In short, He covered me in His peace; and whereas I felt like I was on the edge of it - it was sufficient enough.

I was not thankful when I asked Him for help - I was frantic and frustrated. As I ponder the words in that passage, however, I see that He has made me thankful - despite my anxiety.

Lord, let my prayers to be an act of trust,
Not always a last ditch effort for sanity.
Please teach me.
And then help me to remember.
Thank You that You hear me and respond regardless.